Hyperfocus

One of the things with my ADHD

Is the hyperfocus

It's like a twitch in my knee

Pulling at me

Crashing my brain

Taking me down rabbit holes

Taking total control

Every second

Every minute

Every hour

Every fucking waking moment

Hyperfocus is quite an opponent

But, it isn't all bad

And rarely makes me sad

It makes me good at my job

Condensing a day's work into hours

Completely focussed on the job at hand

Like Simone Biles, it's my superpower

Flying through the air

Reading reports

Writing bids

Chairing meetings

Meeting staff

Attending training

Feeding my brain

Always looking to conquer new terrain

But.....

It can also be torture and take over my life

An obsession that won't lift

An obsession that won't shift

An obsession giving me real strife

Because now I cannot stop thinking about Taylor Swift

I blame my daughter

She played me a few songs

I was like a lamb to the slaughter

My appetite to find out everything about her.

I listened to Fearless

Taylor's version like a true fan

I wished I could've cared less

I learnt the lyrics

Over and over again

Like I was possessed

Mr Perfectly Fine

You Belong with Me

My brain is all at sea!

Next album was Red

Treacherous

I Knew You Were Trouble

State of Grace

Forever Winter

Please Brain

Give me some bloody space!

Then there was

1989

Reputation

Lover

I was hungry for more

Folklore

Evermore

Midnights

Tortured Poets

Hyperfocus drags me further

To her movies

I watch them all without a murmur

My brain asking questions all the time

How is she so talented?

How can she perform on stage for three hours?

She must have a zillion superpowers.

I don't know where to go

My head is so consumed

My brain is mush

I wish it would just hush

I have to be patient

Succumb to my thoughts

Bide my time and try to function

Until I reach a new junction

My hyperfocus burning out like a comet

Speeding back to earth

Making me want to vomit.